oh how i wish it would snow

i haven't felt like myself lately. or maybe i've felt more like myself than i ever have before. either way, it scares me.. and it scares me to be afraid of myself. days drag on now and i all i want to do is snuggle up with someone and watch a movie or listen to music.. go to boo boos and browse through all the albums i don't have and don't have the money to buy. i just miss everything i would be doing right now if i felt like myself. i'm listening to a chirstmas album right now. and i want it to be that time more than ever,. the frosty air and a hot cup of tea. a soft kiss on a rosy cold cheek and a scarf wrapped around a neck so warm. and looking up at the stars in the wintertime