time drags on slowly. i feel like i have been waiting in line for something all my life. and i don't even know what it is. i just want to sit in the backseat. gaze out the window at the countryside during a car ride to somewhere far away. i think i would take kenzie with me. she would love that. and maybe nathan too. and we'd listen to music, amazing music of course, and we would catch up and have some amazing conversatios again. and when we came across somewhere we would want to stay a while, we would. and we would just live and be.

i just want to get lost.